I Am Re-Committing

Tomorrow is the first day of the last month of 2020.  There are exactly 31 days left of this truly incredible year...and I mean that in every sense of that word.  

There has been such a collective heaviness and trauma that we have all experienced over the last 11 months.  Personally I can tell you that where I began this year and where I am now feel millions of miles apart from one another.  The intentions I had set, the hopes I had, so many things have had to pivot if not altogether change.  Not all of it has been bad and some of it has come with a silver lining I could not have foreseen.

That being said, here is what I am re-committing myself to doing in these last 31 days.  I am re-committing to the things that nourish and nurture me.  I am re-committing to my practices, my daily meditation and neurotools and weekly movement.  I am re-committing to my business.  I am re-committing to my students and clients.  I am re-committing to my family.  I am re-committing to my community. I am re-committing to my work.  I am re-committing to connection. 

One of the things you will also notice me re-committing to is this blog.  I am re-committing to my writing.  One of my biggest dreams in this life is to write a book. I have danced on the edge of getting it going over and over again, but I know it’s time to commit.  To even write that “out loud” is so scary.  And while this blog is not the book that is wanting to pour out of me, it is a space for me to exercise my writing and recommit myself to it daily.  I hope to be writing for you.  I hope to be sharing content that will make your day brighter when you need it, or feel solidarity when things get real.  You can participate as much or as little as you wish.  There will be a daily email in your inbox, my hope is that you read them all, but my expectations are grounded in the likelihood that you will not. 

I don’t expect that these next 31 days will bring about enormous change.  I don’t expect that it will be perfect.  But I am not re-committing for either of these purposes. I want to close out this incredible, crazy, absurd, unprecedented year standing strong in my own intention and commitment.  I want to spend the final days of a year that has been filled with heaviness and immense uncertainty, where my life has completely changed from riding the subway to driving past corn fields, with my dignity intact.  I say dignity because the very definition is a state or quality of worth of honor and respect. I want to honor and respect all that this year has brought forth, even the hardest moments.  I want to honor and respect it and walk out of it with a wholehearted tenderness for the lessons it has brought.  And I want to create, from my own being, a closing experience that will hold and see all of it as sacred.

May some of what I write serve to inspire you to do the same as we close down 2020 in these next 31 days. 

What are you re-committing to?

I lovingly dare you to write in below.